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Hi! It has been a while. Having a moral dilemma now because as much as I want to join my parents in Cameron Highland, I've made promises to friends and I also have a job. Though technically I work from home, there are times where I am needed at the office. And I just sent out a document which means there will be a follow up later. Haha I am just justifying my stupid decision to just stay at home. But my parents are still here so I still have time to pack and go haha. I've been coughing for a week and it is very very annoying. It takes so much energy and it is worse at night so I haven't been sleeping properly all week. Is it because of the aircond? I am not going to find out because PJ is too warm to sleep without one. Hah the joy of living in a developed area. I need to try drinking honey and lemon but I hate honey haha but I cannot tahan any much longer. Wish me luck. The other day I met this person who is a big ball of talent and he really is like an onion. Everyda...

"Saya janji tak excited, atau sedih" kata hati. Otak pandang serong pada Hati tapi Otak percaya juga. Hati dan otak dua dua commander in chief, jadi apa apa keputusan pun takkan jadi apa apa tanpa Otak. Hati teruskan buat kerja, menjadi makin tenang supaya organ organ lain boleh tidur. Biasa kalau hati tak tenang, satu badan kerja penuh masa. Tapi sebelum tidur, Otak kata apa kata tengok keadaan sekejap. Mata dan tangan bergerak seiring, Hati masih sempoi lagi. Hati tak expect apa apa pun. Tiba tiba mata ternampak sesuatu, Tekak dah mula tan tenteram, sebab kalau Hati tak tenang, dia yang akan kena dulu sebab paip air Mata tak berfungsi secara normal. Hati dapat sense sesuatu macam fishy. Dia arahkan Mata fokus dekat satu tempat. Otak dah mengeluh. Tapi tiba tiba Hati kata, hm that was expected, kita relax relax je. Hati nak cakap ilek ilek je sebenarnya tapi Otak kata dia ada dignity nak dijaga. Hati kata hek eleh kau cakap Bahasa Melayu pun huru hara. Tiba tiba tangan c...

I am very bad at writing poems, so I am going to write one. Ha ha ha. Feel free to close tab now. Midnight lover itu apa? Escapism, bukan realiti sebenar, penghibur hati, Muncul di tengah malam, Di kala waktu manusia menjadi jujur, Tahu semua rahsia, Beritahu semua rahsia, Namun tidak relevan. Dia juga satu adventure, Thrilling, membuat jantung berdegup laju, Tapi bila pagi tiba, Semua normal kembali, Kecuali untuk midnight lover. Aku juga mahu midnight lover, bagaimana? Cari orang yang sanggup, Yang kewujudannya tidak diketahui siapa siapa, Realiti yang dia cipta tidak ada makna jika bukan midnight, Cari orang yang sanggup, Pada waktu lain dia bukan siapa siapa, Cari orang yang sanggup, Bazirkan masa siang untuk menunggu malam, Tapi midnight lover ini gagah, Jadi jangan kau bimbang, Carilah dia di waktu malam, Atau siang jika kau mahu, Dia cuma mahu ada, Tidak mahu lebih. ********************************************* Hahahaha tahniah jika baca sampai h...

Dah umur 24 baru dapat nasihat supaya "always keep your pants on" (edited version). I feel like I'm in a Hollywood movie/American series. Because that is as close as I can get to white people lol. I do believe that sex ed is very important. It is better to be aware than regretting things later. It should cover from how the machinery works and what comes with it. Being hush hush about it will not get us anywhere. I don't have any formal education on sex ed before I'm fifteen. Good thing that my teacher was very open about it so we did learn some stuff out of the textbook. I touched a condom too during class. I literally touch and not hold it because there's lube all over it and it's kinda yucky. If you're going camping or on an adventure, stock up on condoms as they can be used as water bottles. They are small and light and don't take up much space. Dont worry about the lube or flavors people put it in their mouth all the time. In case you didn...

You are a shit friend, Hawa. And also a shit person. Literally (because haven't pooped kakaka) and figuratively.  Okay this is a serious post. Not an update on my stomach.  Whenever I try to fix things, they end up being worse. But I still do it anyway. Probably because I am the only one who think that things need fixing. But if I sense something is not fine, should I ignore it? Because talking about it is also an attempt to fix it.  Also whatsapp is a bitch. Especially when you're explaining things. You say it this way, they'd see it the other way. So note to self, say what you want to say face to face or by phone calls. And don't be a chicken by only having balls when you're texting. A friend told me I was being irrational, I said thank you because at least I know how the friend thinks of me and friend said I am provoking. I really don't want to lose this friend, but all I do is pushing this friend away.  Sad to say that I am too attached to...

Dah bayar qada' tidur, dah hilangkan semua keresahan di dada lolol, dah buat apa yang patut maka saya rasa semangat nak menghadapi hari esok hahaha. But I did manage to destroy our company's bunting. Haih but I am going to fix it today so Boss, you better be happy I have the Midas touch. Haha. Converted my permanent status to part time staff so the Boss might be quite happy that I am not costing him more money hahaha. But he told me I can use the office if I want to start a business with the friend aka Kak Jane aka Zana Banana so I guess he is not that scared of the possibilities of me destroying the office. If you look at me you would be surprised at how many things I managed to destroy actually. Because I dont look like Wreck It Ralph. Haha what is this nonsense. I am so excited for today's lunch haha I've planned what I am going to eat already. Since yesterday. Yesterday I was so out of myself because too sleepy I walked like a zombie. I did find a little nook in...

Sewaktu orang lain berjumpa dengan Tuhannya di tikar sejadah atau di halaman masjid, Sang Gadis berjumpa dengan Tuhannya di tempat terakhir sekali yang boleh difikirkannya. Di sebalik bunyi kriuk kriuk katil yang bergegar kerana satu pasangan kekasih memadu asmara, di dalam sebuah bilik dipenuhi asap penghilang masalah sementara, Sang Gadis berjumpa Tuhannya. Di dalam keadaan terdesak itu, Tuhannya datang dan membisikkan kata kata indah, menenangkan hati Sang Gadis yang tersepit dalam keadaan. Di suasana yang dipenuhi dosa, Sang Gadis dapat melihat cahaya yang sedia memandu Sang Gadis ke destinasi yang sepatutnya. ********* Acah acah deep. tapi it is based on a true story. Dua minggu ni rasa jauh dengan Tuhan. Asyik buat salah walaupun tau tu salah. Tak tahu kenapa macam tu. Lepas tu macam dapat rasa Tuhan tarik satu benda yang penting, baru nak kecoh kecoh cari Quran cari telekung. Apa nak jadi ni Hawa. Lepas tu rasa diri makin tak tenang. Dah tau dah jawapan dia ada pada Tuhan,...