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"Saya janji tak excited, atau sedih" kata hati. Otak pandang serong pada Hati tapi Otak percaya juga. Hati dan otak dua dua commander in chief, jadi apa apa keputusan pun takkan jadi apa apa tanpa Otak. Hati teruskan buat kerja, menjadi makin tenang supaya organ organ lain boleh tidur. Biasa kalau hati tak tenang, satu badan kerja penuh masa. Tapi sebelum tidur, Otak kata apa kata tengok keadaan sekejap. Mata dan tangan bergerak seiring, Hati masih sempoi lagi. Hati tak expect apa apa pun. Tiba tiba mata ternampak sesuatu, Tekak dah mula tan tenteram, sebab kalau Hati tak tenang, dia yang akan kena dulu sebab paip air Mata tak berfungsi secara normal. Hati dapat sense sesuatu macam fishy. Dia arahkan Mata fokus dekat satu tempat. Otak dah mengeluh. Tapi tiba tiba Hati kata, hm that was expected, kita relax relax je. Hati nak cakap ilek ilek je sebenarnya tapi Otak kata dia ada dignity nak dijaga. Hati kata hek eleh kau cakap Bahasa Melayu pun huru hara.

Tiba tiba tangan capai besi sejuk tersorok bawah selimut, Otak suruh turn on besi sejuk sebab nak cari gambar pantai untuk throwback. Tiba tiba bunyi familiar keluar. Semua organ tau apa terjadi. Otak cuba hentikannya, tapi Hati lagi kuat mengawal Jari. Otak kata NOOOOOOO tapi Jari dah reply 6 kali dekat statement hambar yang diberi atas dasar simpati. Otak kata fug you man now we look so thirsty. Jari duduk diam sebab rasa bersalah, Hati pun rasa bodoh jugak. Otak cuba betulkan keadaan. Dia suruh Jari type

"Why am I typing so much"

Percubaan lemah, tapi mungkin ada harapan. Tiba tiba datang reply,

"You're excited"

Semua organ tengok Hati sebab kali ni memang salah Hati, bukan otak. Uterus jerit dari bawah, NOW DO I LOOK LIKE I'M THIRSTY !! Otak dah taknak layan Hati, dia biarkan Hati uruskan keadaan. Hati, bukan dibuat untuk fikir, Hati hanya untuk judge dari segi baik tak baik, dari segi emosi. Tapi Hati kata tak apa, let me reply

"Probably"
"Okay tak pun"
"Ye ke"
"Siapa tau"

Hidung tarik nafas dalam dalam supaya badan cukup oxygen untuk terima apa jadi lepas tu. Lepas beberapa ketika, nafas dihembus. Lepas lima minit, Otak pun kata, dia taknak reply dahlah tu. Hari bersambung seperti biasa, tapi kalau dengar betul betul, Hati tengah menangis sepi.....sebab malu. 

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HAHAHAHAHA I drank coffee today, and ate cake, and did not drink any water to neutralize the sugar so I am hyper right now. I need to drink more water considering my cough is not getting any better, in fact it is getting worse huahuahua but I lazy to go down. And cd Quran tu terpasang je and something about the sound of man reading Quran in the middle of the night is scary. Ke that's just me? Haha IDK. Okay bye. 

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