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Lisa sets everything up quickly because she is already late. She promised Sarah that she would talk to her everyday, at 12a.m. sharp. Whenever she is late, Sarah will be upset and angry and that is something that she would want to avoid. She does not need another broken cup or flickering light. "Sarah, are you there?" Lisa feels quite chilly that night and that is because she left the window open. She is unsure whether it is true or not, but some people say that if you want the connection to be better, you should leave your windows open. "Today is a very bad day. I saw them.. I saw them together" Sarah's voice is trembling, she is holding back her tears. She is talking about her 'soulmate', Alex who dumped her because their souls were no longer connecting. But it is true. Lisa saw with her own eyes that their relationship is breaking apart. Alex used to be able to listen to Sarah's stories day and night, but after a while, he got tired of it and ...

Listening to old Bigbang songs while writing my report. And then I got to Taeyang's Wedding Dress and I can hear the sound of my heart breaking. Hahaha. Had to gather myself for a few minutes and here I am writing this post to let my future self know that once upon a time you got sad listening to Wedding Dress. While procrastinating, I was looking at this person's twitter account. He is in love, I know he is. He retweets love quotes and bits and pieces of poems. Also he kinda announced that he is in love. But in a discreet way. Like you really have to look at his tweets to see that he is actually telling the world how's he feeling. He's like Hansel and Gretel, leaving breadcrumbs everywhere. I think that is very cute. I hope his girlfriend notices all the breadcrumbs since I think he is very private with his life. There are people who wants their significant other to announce their love to the world, and if she is one of them hopefully she can see it. The time of th...

I am a big believer of love. I used to be skeptical about love but not anymore considering that everyone around me keeps proving that true love is very real and not just a Disney movie plot. But I am not sure whether I am a realist or a pessimist, but I do once in a while (if not everytime) think that I am not worthy of true love. I have seen people who lives alone without any partner till they're old so I don't think that it is impossible for me to have such a life. I do think about it a lot to the point that I am actually making plans on how to survive when I am old and alone. This involves adopting children because I cant think of any other ways that is more secured than that. Or maybe I just be very rich and hire a team of helpers to help me when I am old. Whichever comes first lah haha. The reasons why I believe that I might not find anybody worth sharing my life is first, I don't even see anybody outside my circle. Except for work. My circle of friends is very sma...

Wow. July is very happening. A lot has happened and it is only the 27th haha. Bulan puasa, my birthday, raya, I went to a beach and air terjun in the same week, fell in love, went bat shit crazy because suddenly I am feeling things, got rejected HAHA, fell out of love, and I went to Bigbang concert ! I will update on the concert when YG uploads the Tour Report. Because I promised myself to enjoy the concert, I did not take any pictures during the concert. My bulan puasa was nice. But I miss a lot of sahur because I was sleeping late because I was avoiding sleep in order to avoid overthinking. But I also felt quite bad because I was thinking a lot about the dunia stuff while I should be focusing on the hereafter. Raya was a roller coaster. I was super happy and super sad, and then I got happier and then sadder. It was a bit tiring to feel so many things but I am glad that now I am back to my usual self. Sorry for those who were affected by my little journey of emotions. I wrote a ...

Haha hello. I am not talking about having a baby. Having your period is really weird, you're bleeding for a period (hehe) of time but you're not really dying. Your hormone is raging. You don't know what you want anymore. What you love today, you might hate it with all your guts tomorrow. And suddenly you want to be in love and get married and cuddle with someone. You want to eat a lot but you feel super fat and super conscious about your body. You want to be pretty but life is too much for a person who's bleeding that you end up wearing anything comfortable/you could find in your closet.  I hope everything goes well today. I am celebrating my birthday (wohoo !) with a bunch of friends and I am planning to eat everything that I can fit in my stomach. Also I need to drink coke to keep my uterus calm.  I shall find work to do. Bulan Puasa is fun because there's not many thing to do, but since I can't talk with anybody, it is pretty boring. Okaylah, till ...