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Lisa sets everything up quickly because she is already late. She promised Sarah that she would talk to her everyday, at 12a.m. sharp. Whenever she is late, Sarah will be upset and angry and that is something that she would want to avoid. She does not need another broken cup or flickering light.

"Sarah, are you there?" Lisa feels quite chilly that night and that is because she left the window open. She is unsure whether it is true or not, but some people say that if you want the connection to be better, you should leave your windows open.

"Today is a very bad day. I saw them.. I saw them together" Sarah's voice is trembling, she is holding back her tears. She is talking about her 'soulmate', Alex who dumped her because their souls were no longer connecting. But it is true. Lisa saw with her own eyes that their relationship is breaking apart. Alex used to be able to listen to Sarah's stories day and night, but after a while, he got tired of it and he distanced himself more from her. He no longer speaks the same language with Sarah and that's the end of their story.

"You're not supposed to do that ! That is a very dangerous thing to do. Come on Sarah, you are better than this. And besides, what are you going to do now that you've seen them?" Lisa is angry. This is not the first time and she knows for sure that this is not the last time. She believes that Sarah is addicted to pain, constantly craving for more pain for no particular reason.

"He was holding her hand, you know. And she was playing with his hair. He hates it when people do that. I know, he complained about it to me before. But I don't see him getting angry with her, maybe he was trying to hide it. Maybe deep inside he was really angry but he was not showing it. But he was smiling. He never smiled like that when he's with me, it's like he is truly happy". At this point, Lisa just stops and listens to Sarah. She wants to comfort her but there's nothing that she can do about it. If she knows how, she would have done it a long time ago, when it is not already too late.

"Do you think that if he gives me one more chance, I could make him that happy?" Lisa sighed deeply and nods her head. "Of course he would be happy with you, you make everyone happy Sarah. I am always very happy when I am with you. It's just that he cant see what he needs, he only knows what he wants"

"Do you really think so? Do you think that I should wait?"

"No, you should move on. Of course you can make him happy, but you should make you happy first"

"I get your point, but one last question, do you think that I can get another chance? If I wait long enough?" she sounds hopeful, waiting for her best friend to give her the answer that she wants.

"I'm sorry, but no. You're dead, and he is alive. You cant be together with him" It is hard to say it to Sarah, the nicest girl who deserves everything in her life, but it is also harder for her to lie because it is important that Sarah moves on from this. This is no longer her world.

The lights in her house flicker, the windows shake and the furniture moves. She knows that Sarah is angry, but there's nothing that she can do. While she's putting away the ouija board, the crystal ball and the candles, she cries and blames herself for not being attentive enough to Sarah when she was sad, and for not being quick enough to stop Sarah from hanging herself at their favorite lake.

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