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July.

Wow. July is very happening. A lot has happened and it is only the 27th haha.

Bulan puasa, my birthday, raya, I went to a beach and air terjun in the same week, fell in love, went bat shit crazy because suddenly I am feeling things, got rejected HAHA, fell out of love, and I went to Bigbang concert ! I will update on the concert when YG uploads the Tour Report. Because I promised myself to enjoy the concert, I did not take any pictures during the concert.

My bulan puasa was nice. But I miss a lot of sahur because I was sleeping late because I was avoiding sleep in order to avoid overthinking. But I also felt quite bad because I was thinking a lot about the dunia stuff while I should be focusing on the hereafter. Raya was a roller coaster. I was super happy and super sad, and then I got happier and then sadder. It was a bit tiring to feel so many things but I am glad that now I am back to my usual self. Sorry for those who were affected by my little journey of emotions.

I wrote a lot of blog posts, posted some of them and decided to hide them because Nanad told me that they are too sad haha I thought they're annoying and I was trying too hard to be deep.

Oh well. till then. Bye.

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