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And we have no water at home. And I am sticky and smelly, urgh. Since I am here, might as well do a recap of my life haha. I got a job last year, last month was actually my work anniversary. Half of the time my job really sucks, like I can't even believe why I am still tolerating this shit, but half of the time I am learning something new and I get money every 7th of the month. Sometimes on the 8th because they don't think I need the money I guess. I love and hate my job passionately but I guess that's me just being an adult. Now that I am 27 years old, I realised that other 27 years olds are just bluffing, pretending that they know how to do things. Pretty sure they also just try anything and hope to God that it will work. Since January I've been wearing makeup, to make use of what I have. They're fun. Someone told me if  I keep it up some men will fall in love with me. I also have 7 people asking me when am I going to at least find someone. I guess dating is...

We are in our favorite cafe, you sitting in front of me in our usual spot, beaming with happiness while chirping, telling me about this one big giant news that I am not sure what it is about. I was the one who asked you out, because I wanted to "catch up" but now all I want to do is leave. But I put on my best listening face, even though I am not really listening, staring right into you but not really looking at you. "I don't really care" I say quietly under my breath "Um..what?" Your face shows that you're totally confused, and for some reason I am also shocked that the words managed to escape my mouth. But since I've opened the gate, I might as well continue. "I'm sorry but I don't really care. You don't have to tell me this"  You wait for me to continue, probably giving me another chance to take back what I've just said. "It's a bit tiring, to be the only one listening. And I just don't...

About a month ago (haha), Tiq and I went to Japan! We spent almost a year preparing for the trip and it was definitely the best trip I've had so far. But if you didn't know, two or three months after buying our flight tickets, we both quit our job and we had to save money for this trip. So for this blogpost, I'm going to tell you what I did (because I cant speak on behalf of Tiq) in order to survive and also save enough money for Japan! So, sometime in May I think, Tiq and I spent about RM950++ each to buy our flight tickets. At that time we were quite rich because we worked and don't really use our money that much. So after that, we focused on finding a cheap and comfortable accommodation. I tried looking for a hotel room but apparently the rate of a hotel room is super expensive especially for our currency. And to top it off, we started looking when our currency rate was so bad that I started to regret my impulsive decision just for a bit. And then I checked AirBn...

These four months have been very very good to me. I really have to thank Allah for the rezeki that He is giving me, even though I have a long way to go before I can be considered a good Muslim. I quit my old job and I am finally doing what I love, writing and handling business. I have been freelancing for 4 months now and I have written so many things and it's really have been fun. I am also in charge of two social media accounts (four if you count in my own account and my business account!) which is quite a handful for me. But I get to decide my own work hours so that's cool. I am also a self-proclaimed publisher now. Tiq and I were talking about making our own zine and building a platform where contributors will get paid for their work and we decided right there and then to start our own zine. It was so sudden but we're doing fine, we even joined an event the other day to start selling our zine. We are still very small but we're very proud of what we've achieved...

I tried reading on Search Engine Optimization (SEO) but it is very boring. HTML is one of the things that I have tried to learn but my brain just refused to accept because I don't like mixing words with numbers and symbols. But now that I want to venture further into online advertisement, I really really really need to be able to understand SEO. If can, immediately. Like right now. Haha. I have been filling my time with some freelancing but I think that I need to advertise myself more hahaha I sound like a prostitute okay just kidding. But if you need any help from me (and you can pay money hahaha), feel free to contact me okay. That's all for now. I'll rant more later. Good day!

"I'd never thought that we will come to this point, where the silence is more suffocating than comforting, where our conversations are so forced you can hear the insincerity. We used to be one, but now we're so different it's like it never happened. Maybe our forever is over." "People change, and you have to accept that. Nothing wrong with separation, maybe it is what we need in order to grow" "When someone so important to you changes to something, you need to learn how to adapt. You work your way through it and find another link that connects you together. Saying separation is inevitable is a coward's way of telling someone that they don't matter anymore" "You jump to conclusions easily. You don't know how much it hurts to see that we're now strangers, to constantly miss what we used to be. But is it smart to dwell in something for too long? No. You get sad and you move on." "It must not hurt that bad if ...

What I need now - A notebook and a good pen. I kinda sound like Nussow right now but I think I finally get it, these two things are very important. My notebook now is very big and dirty, though I love it, it is taking too much space. But maybe I should just keep quiet and use it. I also need loads of new clothes. I have nothing nice to wear and I keep wearing the same thing over and over again. But I also hate spending money on clothes haha so I should just keep quiet and wear what I have now. Might try baking. I keep craving for cakes might as well try to learn on how to make it myself. A little fun fact about myself, I always have this irrational fear that during my first visit to see my in laws, they'd ask me to cut the fruits, or I would stupidly offer to cut it myself. Maybe if I know how to bake cakes, I dont need to cut fruits. (Yes, I dont know why I always think that I would be bringing fruits to see my future in laws, especially when I dont fancy them that much) I n...