We are in our favorite cafe, you sitting in front of me in our usual spot, beaming with happiness while chirping, telling me about this one big giant news that I am not sure what it is about. I was the one who asked you out, because I wanted to "catch up" but now all I want to do is leave. But I put on my best listening face, even though I am not really listening, staring right into you but not really looking at you.
"I don't really care" I say quietly under my breath
"Um..what?" Your face shows that you're totally confused, and for some reason I am also shocked that the words managed to escape my mouth. But since I've opened the gate, I might as well continue.
"I'm sorry but I don't really care. You don't have to tell me this"
You wait for me to continue, probably giving me another chance to take back what I've just said.
"It's a bit tiring, to be the only one listening. And I just don't want to listen anymore" And at this point, you look like you're offended and angry, a look I've seen a lot of time on your face because according to you, I am always saying the wrong things.
You're ready to argue, biting your lips before I cut you off,
"You can be offended, but this is how I feel and I cant take it anymore. This is not my breaking point but I am just...lazy. And it is also offensive and downgrading, the way you're telling me about you as if I really really want to know, because I don't. Not anymore"
I can feel the heat of your anger, if that is really a thing. And I totally get it that you're angry. Because in your mind you have done enough and I am the one who fail to see everything that you've done. But I wont explain, because you just wouldn't listen.
"What do you want from me?" You finally ask, in a sharp tone, the chirpiness from before is all gone. I used to be intimidated by this, most likely due to my fear of seriousness and angry people but it just doesn't feel the same way anymore. At most I am only feeling annoyed by your display of power as if I am beneath you.
"I don't want anything. That is why I don't care anymore. I just want this to be done and over with. You're still my friend, but that is all. Okay, maybe I would still care for you, because I am a nice person, but that is all. And now I am going to pay for everything because today is a very special day for you. Congratulations for whatever you were saying before"
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