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Luahan isi hati.

Just woke up from my nap haha.

Soalan paling banyak yang dapat dalam beberapa bulan ni adalah "kenapa tunggu lama lama sangat?". Pasal kerja yang tertangguh, pasal lesen, pasal beberapa benda lain. Secara jujurnya, saya sendiri tak pasti mengapa saya menunggu begitu lama. Mungkin sebab dah biasa tak kisah pasal benda, macam mana nak sangat benda tu pun, kalau nampak macam takkan dapat, terus pergi ke tempat lain. Tak pernah attach dengan satu benda dengan begitu lama, sebab macam tak peduli sangat.

Sebenarnya macam bersyukurlah walaupun perjalanan hidup ni tak macam orang lain, dengan perangai tak pedulikan benda ni, Tuhan sentiasa bantu dengan hantar peluang dan orang orang untuk menyenangkan hidup. Alhamdulillah tak pernah rasa walaupun tak ikut perjalanan hidup yang normal, tak pernah rasa sesak dan tak cukup.

Tapi, sebab perangai tak peduli ni lah tiba tiba dah terhilang satu peluang penting. Yang sebenarnya dari dulu lagi dah tau nakkan benda ni. Sekarang dah terlambat sangat sangat sampai rasa sentap bila orang kata "kenapa tunggu lama lama sangat". Mungkinlah tak terlambat lagi, hidup insyaAllah masih panjang, tapi nak tunggu peluang datang balik tu yang susah. Sekarang dah redha dah peluang ni macam samar samar nak dapat, tapi bila doa dekat Allah supaya hilangkan perasaan nakkan peluang ni, perasaan jadi makin kuat pulak, tapi masih redha haha faham tak?

Tak apalah, sekarang nak bersedia je. Kalau peluang dibuka lagi, nak lari pergi dapatkan peluang, taknak tunggu lama lama dah. Rasanya kalau peluang ni datang balik, lepas tu tengok je taknak usaha , mungkin lepas ni Tuhan pun dah taknak tolong dah. Ha padan muka. Mereput kau disitu.

Haha sebenarnya deep sangat lepas bangun tidur ni sebab tadi mimpi dapat benda yang diingini, lepas tu tahap kegembiraan hidup naik 200%. Haha entah apa apakan percaya pada mimpi, tapi bukannya I have anything to lose pun percayakan benda ni. Okaylah selamat petang. Byebye.

And oh, twitter dah deactivate balik sebab dah tak reti nak guna macam mana. Rasa macam tak belong dan dah tak tau macam mana nak digest informasi banyak banyak macam tu.

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