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1 liter of tears.

Masa tengahhari tadi tak tau nak buat apa maka pergilah tengok youtube. Lepas tu tengok channel soulpancake. Lepas tu tengok "My last Days : Meet Juli" dengan "My Last Days : Meet Joel". Juli ada cancer and Joel ada tumor. Juli ada 5 orang anak dan mula mula dalam video tu dia positif, tiba tiba dia cakap dia takut kalau family dia tak ingat dia bila dia dah mati. Lepas tu baru nampak disebalik ketabahan dia tu, dia sebenarnya ada jugak rasa takut. Lepas tu Joel ni 4 tahun. Dia ada banyak tumor tapi semuanya hilang. Dalam video ni dia pergi check-up dengan emak dan ayah dia. Masa Joel tengah MRI, emak dan ayah dia cerita yang dia syukur walaupun Joel ni awal awal dia nazak, tapi Tuhan sembuhkan dia. Lepas tu dah 24 bulan dah sejak kali terakhir Joel ada tumor. Tiba tiba, doktor yang in-charge pergi dekat parents dia. Lepas tu dia cakap, ada tumor baru dalam badan Joel.

Okay sedih gila. Bergenang genang air mata. 

Sebab sedih sangat, pergilah tumblr sebab boleh cuci mata tengok Seungho dan T.O.P so takdelah sedih sangat. Tiba tiba terbaca satu post pasal "Daegu Subway fire". Dekat post tu dia tunjuk beberapa mesej terakhir penumpang yang mati dalam kebakaran tu. Ya Allah sedihnya. Dahlah semua orang happy nak pergi kerja. Ada satu mesej tu dia cakap "If I'm not here tomorrow, what are you going to do? I'm just asking because I was curious haha". Dia letak haha dekat hujung ayat supaya orang tu tak rasa apa apa tapi sebenarnya dia memang tau dia akan mati. Dahlah. Malas nak cakap apa apa.

Marilah doakan untuk semua orang. Terutamanya untuk orang orang yang sedang berjuang di Sabah, dan saudara saudara Islam kita yang dekat Gaza, Syria dan yang sewaktu dengannya. 

P/s : Tak ada link atau gambar atau video sebab tak sampai hati nak cari balik dekat history. tapi semua benda ni google-able maka mudah saja kalau nak tengok.

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