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Dihati

Dehearty = Di hati. Phaeeyzar = Faiza

Dulu masa dekat SEMASHUR, kadang kadang tidur dekat bilik Nisa Hazirah. Lepas tu sebelum tidur dia ajak dengar MP3. Saya ada MP4, tapi sepanjang dekat sekolah, 6 bulan je kot guna. Yang lain MP4 tu habiskan masa dekat bilik warden sebab asyik kena rampas je. Okay berbalik kepada cerita Nisa Hazirah, Nisa ni ada lagu nasyid dalam MP3 dia. Tak suka dengar lagu nasyid, sebab asyik nak rasa jatuh cinta je sebab suara diorang semua awesome sangat. Setuju tak? Tak eh?

Bila dah masuk UiTM, dah jarang dengar lagu nasyid. Tak pernah pun kot, tapi selalu nyanyi sendiri je dengan Eja. Tapi dah tentulah nyanyi sendiri tak sama perasaan dia dengan dengar penyanyi nasyid kan. Dahlah macam sikit sikit tone deaf kahkahkah. Tapi beberapa lama yang lalu, ada orang suruh cari lagu ni. Unfortunately not for me lah. Kalau orang bagi lagu ni dekat saya, nak kahwin dengan orang tu immediately :P


Seriously, try listening to this song. Tak suka nasyid pun dengar je. Kalau boleh dengar Oppa Gangnam Style yang tak faham tu, apalah salahnya dengar lagu ni kan. Herherher, cakap dengan cermin. 

Dah berapa kali dah dengar lagu ni. Can I cry ? Lepas ni nak jadi lemah lembut dan cakap baik baik. Dah taknak ketawa macam buaya dah. Nak diam diam je. (azam yang sama yang dah di-recycle 80 kali). Dahlah, nak pergi layan perasaan bawah selimut. 

ps: Esok nak pergi kelas memandu. Doakan saya kaya dan berjaya ! 

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