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Eenie meenie.

Saya Aries.
Saya lahir bulan Ogos.
Saya darah jenis B
Saya lahir waktu pagi.
Saya orang kampung.
Saya orang Johor.
Saya lelaki.
Saya PMS.
Saya dari keluarga open minded.

Saya memang macam ni.

Pernah tak dengar orang guna ayat ayat macam ni untuk alasan kenapa dia act macam tu. Contohnya "saya orang ******, sebab tu mulut saya pedas". "Saya darah * sebab tu saya jarang kisah pasal orang lain". Banyak lagi contoh, tapi saya rasa pembaca saya bukan bayi maka saya harap awak faham. Saya memang tak kisah kalau orang guna alasan tu untuk benda yang bagus dia buat. Contohnya, "saya orang kampung, sebab tu saya boleh masak masakan kampung", "saya berdarah *, saya memang punctual". Tapi yang paling entah apa apa sekali kalau dia guna alasan tu untuk benda yang dia buat yang menyakitkan hati orang. "Maaf lambat sebab saya orang *******."

Budak kecik kalau buat benda, dia mesti akan tengok contoh orang keliling dia. Sebab itukan role model dia. Tapi bila dia dah makin besar, sepatutnya dia dah pandai berfikir yang mana satu bagus yang mana satu tak. Proses ni sama je dengan orang lain. Kecuali kalau kau ada masalah mentallah, itu dah hal lain. Tapi nak cakap pasal manusia yang normal ni. Kenapa awak tak boleh fikir sendiri?

Saya ada seorang kawan ni dulu, dia selalu guna ayat macam ni kalau dia berlaku "terlalu jujur". Tapi masalahnya, dia boleh pilih untuk tak berlaku "terlalu jujur" dengan berdiam diri sahaja. Kalau tak cakap benda yang jujur tak semestinya menipu. Betul tak? Tapi dia kena salahkan benda lain seolah olah kalau dia dilahirkan dalam certain keadaan dia kena jadi macam tu.

Okay kesimpulannya disini, semua benda tu terletak atas diri masing masing. Kalau rasa diri tu selalu bangun lambat, janganlah janji dengan orang guna masa awal pagi. Kalau selalu rasa tak boleh nak cakap benda baik baik, cakaplah dalam hati. Kalau rasa bukan seorang pendengar yang baik, janganlah offer diri nak dengar. Mudah je. If you dont want to face it, avoid it. Mudah.

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