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28!

This is late but if you're reading this, Happy New Year!

I was in the middle of writing this when I suddenly got hit by an existential crisis. It was pretty dark that it almost turn morbid. Okay, it was definitely a bit morbid but I did something I've been planning to do for a while now so I managed to keep the bad thoughts at bay. Brains are amazing.

Maybe I should talk a little bit about my crisis and then move on with other more pleasant things.

While I am very positive and sometimes I may look like I ooze sunlight out of me, I can be very hard on myself. My thoughts can be depressive but I am not depressed because I think of it as a form of self-actualization. Haha I don't think I am fully self-actualized but I do try to see myself in all angles, good and bad. I usually let myself wallow in self-pity for a few moments but I'm already 28 so today I've decided to postpone my pity party. Save it for a time where I can afford to be sad.

Now, let's move on.

I have a few things that I would like to achieve this year, so here's a list in case you're interested.

1. Mastering the oven
I have tried to make roasted chicken and they're a success so there's that. I have also found a chocolate chip cookie recipe that actually worked so now I wanna try making meringue and also kuih raya! Hopefully this year we will have kuih raya that I make myself.

2. Sewing
We have a sewing machine that is currently collecting dust so I wanna try using them to make something. I want to learn how to make jubah and also flowy blouses so that I can wear my own design and hopefully save some money haha.

3. Make more videos!
I always share my cooking videos on my Instagram stories so I thought I should try making full-length videos. I have made one video on how to make mee goreng haha



Haha it is still not that good but hopefully, it'll be better soon

4. Translator Certificate!
I have never translated anything before so I wanna challenge myself and take a short course on it.

There might be more but I will update later. It's almost subuh so I better go pray Isya' hahaha probably should work on my relationship with Allah first before I do everything else.


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