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26 September 2018

So... my social media detox lasted less than 2 weeks. Hahaha. But I still haven't installed Twitter on my phone, just using it on incognito tab on my phone so that it would be harder for me to open them and waste time on it.

Last week was pretty eventful. I got sick! My mother and I ate the chicken rice that she bought and she puked thrice and got diarrhea. I have a pretty strong stomach but I guess the chicken rice is a stronger contender haha. I was okay at first. I also didn't eat anything else so my rice needed to be digested first before I can remove them. In the morning, I woke up and went to the toilet but still was feeling super bad and then I projectile vomited haha.

I spent two days not eating anything other than few bites here and there and Alhamdulillah by Saturday, I was fine. The bad thing about this is that I don't have any energy to make sandwiches which means no money but the good thing is I was actually the lightest I have ever been in years hahaha.

This reminds me of one conversation I had with Teacher Salmiah Hani back in high school. I told her I just want to lose weight and I don't care how and she said "Even if you got sick?" and I was like "Yeah". Haha. I hope I won't get sick anymore though losing weight is nice haha.

Other than that, I don't have any fun news to share. But since this is an update on my life, my favorite song for today is Trivia Love by Kim Namjoon (BTS). This song really makes me wanna be young and in love. Do you know what I mean? Like being in love when you're 18 and you don't think about being practical, but more like having fun and it is both of you against the world. Too bad I'm way past that period so yeah.

Okay, gotta go to the toilet. Bye!

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