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Feeling like a balloon.

Floating, no string attached.

The other day, I talked to Nanad about how we feel, being 27 and single, constantly depressed and happy at the same time. I realised that it is because we're not attached to anything. A lot of things can make you sad. Or angry. But we can also run away from it. Find ways to make me happy.

I guess I a writing this now because I have this unhappiness that is constantly bothering me. It's been awhile because I usually get over my sadness really quickly. But this time I have been postponing fixing my emotion. I stayed in a really toxic environment thinking my friends would take my mind of it. Today is the second staycation I had in 2 month but the unhappiness still wont go away.

But the election the other day kinda gave me an epiphany on how to solve my problem. A whole group of people taking action together choosing the road not taken, simply jumping into the unknown and while it is still uncertain what the future might bring, it felt liberating. And I believe that is what I should do. Make a choice that I am uncomfortable with and hope for the best.

Other than that, I have been actively trying to lose my weight now. I have been eating like a mad man and now I feel like I should take care of my body better. Though I am now waiting for my Nasi Kerabu at this hour haha. But my diet will resume tomorrow kekeke.

Few more weeks and all of this will be over. Bye!

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