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My 2015 in a nutshell

Tajuk boleh cliche lagi tak? Tak boleh. Okay.

My 2015 was fun. I shall break it down to parts.

Me
I learned so much in 2015, I started realising my strength and my weakness, what I love and what I don't, and I started being more grateful with what I have. I am always grateful but since 2015 was the year of many bad news, I am more grateful with what I have. But I did less brainstorming than before which made my brain kinda rusty haha. Hopefully I will do more this year.

Family
This was the year where I spent most nights at home with my family since I was 13. I've gotten closer with my siblings and parents, I did more chores, and then we got a cat. Moreshi is our cat and he is our favorite cat considering none of us likes cat before haha. But now we're obsessed with him. We talk about him daily. Except for Abah haha. He just listens to our stories. But I wont say that he hates Mo, considering he is willing to drive to Shah Alam to go to the vet, buy stuffs for Mo and many more. He hates it when Mo is on his bed though haha.

Friend
I probably did more for my friends last year compared to years before. When we live together, I did what I did because I am a good person haha, but now I would go the extra miles just to be there for them. But still not much, I may need to do more. I have very small circle of friends to begin with, I cant lose them haha. I also got to know Zana last year. We barely talked before but now she can just crash in my house and hang out with my mother any time that she wants. So glad that she lives nearby haha. I am sticky and I will find people that I will stick to.

Love
This is the part that I regret about 2015. I did something that put someone in a weird position and I think I kinda change some dynamic of my friendship. I am forced to be a little bit more sensitive of what I say and do due to my wrongdoings and I do wish I can go back in time to stop myself from doing what I did. But other than that I am consistently single haha. The only reason I am happy about being single is probably because it was so long ago when I have someone to pour my heart and soul to (lol) and I am not sure what am I missing.

Money
I was rich up to July and I kinda stopped being rich after I changed my working status. So many people are disappointed in me for doing that but I was truly happy. Haha I am not sure how can I be happy when I am almost always broke but I just am. But there are people who couldn't understand how my brains work. If you are one of them, just know that I am the happiest in my life. I've never been this happy before haha.

Writing
I've been writing more haha. Not as much as I would like to, but I did. I do need to learn to write better and how to expand my ideas more so that will be in my 2016's agenda.

Overall, it was a great year. I learned more than I intended haha which is good. Though I am hoping that my 2016 will be better. I shall say goodbye now. Bye! Have a great year!

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