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From past Hawa to future everybody.

Cleaning this computer because I will be returning it tomorrow because I've been using my office laptop at home since my laptop broke down. I've written a lot of stuff this past few months but all of them are unfinished ahaha so I'll just delete them. But there's this one document that I have forgotten about, but when I opened it, I remember everything about it. I wrote it when I thought I was bitten by a love bug but it turned out I was just being stupid hahaha. But I was really sad at that moment so I wrote this in order to get back on my feet.


“The thing about a heartbreak is, it will linger around you no matter you want it or not. You will find yourself laughing at the funniest jokes but it still creeps at the back of your head. You will find yourself crying in the middle of the night because it decides to swallow you whole because you were over thinking it. One day you might find yourself feeling okay but suddenly the next day you are buried in your blanket because the pain is too much. I have no guarantee on when will you be perfectly okay, but you will. And that one, I can promise you.”


Eh wait, suddenly I think I've posted it before. If I already did, I'm sorry for wasting more of your time. Oh, 3 days after feeling the saddest I've felt after years of feeling happy and joyful, I got over my sadness. Just like that. Told ya I was being stupid hahaha. Okay bye. 

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Nad said…
I feel you hawaaa. Especially on the part about heartbreak being the saddest thing that you feel like you can't recover from and then being OK the next three days (or five months, in my case) hehe.
October 28, 2015 at 10:18 AM
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