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Okay, only one baby. I am going to see Nur's baby today ! I am planning to buy diapers for the baby because baby's stuff is mad expensive (RM62.90 for a onesie ! Ridiculous !) and maybe this would help Nur a little bit. Not that she needed the help in the first place. I just feel like buying diapers haha. You might think that I like babies, but not that much. It is because babies hate me ! Most of the time they'll cry before I can even do anything to them. If the baby likes me, it is probably because they're the type of baby that is super chill with everybody. Not because they favor me. But I think I am good with kids aged 3 to 6. And teenagers. But I have no proof. But this is my blog so I can say anything and you must believe it.

I got a bad dream today, and it felt super real. I woke up instantly and my eyes were bloodshed. They were super red (thank you captain obvious) to the point that I got scared looking at myself in the toilet. I hate mirrors but one of my brothers put a mirror in the toilet.

I am planning to write something very very long. I am going to challenge myself to write 10 short stories. Not sure about what yet. Usually if I say it out loud, I am probably not gonna do it, but please pray that it will come true. Zana told me that she's going to buy my book, the only person who gives my writing good review. Maybe because her taste is super mediocre hahahaha. So maybe I will write a book and give it to her. And wait for her praises. And maybe a copy for Nanad. She will always say good things about me, bless her soul because her love for me is blind.

My grammar is terrible. I am unsure of everything ! There are times where I would read back at what I wrote and cringe at the poor grammar. I need an editor. Haha. Tapi, tapi, tapi, my Malay is even worse ! Which is sad because it shows I am lacking social interaction because that's the only way you can lose your language. Malay language is a very big part of me so it sucks to see that some people cant even understand what I am saying. But it usually makes sense to people with good command of English.

It is going to rain. Please pray that it will go away before threeeeeee. Okay bye.

*edited. Haha got error. Herghhh


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