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Growing up is not that fun really.

I think a lot. But mostly about stuffs that are not really important like do babies have eyebrows or will there be a day where printers are attached to laptops. Imagine that one day your children might not know how to write because they use computers all the time. And do you know that printer's ink is more expensive than fuel for space shuttle?

Back to the topic, now that I am 21 years old already, I always feel that I have not achieved enough. I'm not making any money, maybe a little, but still not enough to support myself. I haven't finished my degree and I haven't find the cure for cancer yet. I am not married and I don't have any children haih my poor kids are going to have super old mother while they are still young.

There are days where I have to take a deep breath and calm myself down by realizing that it is not too late. It is only too late if I die.

I have to sleep now because I have a test tomorrow. There might be some errors in this post and other posts as well. Feel free to comment and correct them. Apa nak jadilah dah 4 tahun ambil TESL pun banyak salah lagi. Okay byebye.

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